Another Day to Pray 4/15/09

Reaching out! We need your faith.

We need help and we need prayers. It is another day and we are about the same. Kensley is having loose stools. It is starting to cause her bottom to be chapped, even though I constantly put cream on it. She is only having about three stools a day, which is good, but they are still watery. It is probably because of the antibiotics that the doctors have her on right now. Antibiotics can make the strongest of people have diarrhea. The doctors keep suspecting that she has bacterial overgrowth in her bowel, which is very common for short gut kids. All I know is that we need her bowel to work efficiently and perfectly, for her to start gaining weight, stop having watery stools, and maintain her fluid level on her own. These are our prayer requests. Most of you know that I have been struggling with Kensley's condition lately. I started this terrifying journey almost a year ago holding on to the strength and faith that I had in God. I put a smile on my face and told everyone that I was just waiting on God. Well, I waited and waited, and things got better, but they did not "get good". I wanted Kensley to escape this affliction. And so far, that has not happened. It has been over 10 months of being overwhelmed by diarrhea diapers, broken central lines, trying desperately to keep things sterile and keep my other children from feeling left behind, take care of my husband, house and dogs. The life that we had, the life we wanted, the life we planned is over. I guess I just needed some time to mourn. Time to come to terms with this new life and find hope in the things that are going right. God knew that. He also knew that my strength is not the part of the story that He wants to highlight. I had to become weak to show His power. I have to be totally completely utterly dependent upon Him, and I am-NOW. There is no way that I could continually change these diapers, deal with these medical procedure, and fluids, and blood draws, if God himself wasn't holding me up. My Hope has waned, but His is strong. I am so glad that even when I can't believe in myself, the Lord does. Pray for us, we will be praying for you. I also ask that you pray for all children with this issue. Now that I am in this situation, I am discovering sooooo many children who have this issue or one very similar. Some are making it, some are desperate for a transplant, but all are so special. May God bless them all and give their parents the strength to be caregivers, and parents. And, May God bless those who pray. Prayer is the most important weapon that God gives us. Pray for each other. In the meantime, we will be here calling on the blood of Jesus and asking for a complete healing. Tana