Listening, Waiting and Praying 1/10/09

Well our trial continues. Kensley is back on a slight version of TPN. This is of course the one thing that we did not want, but if it helps her recover from the virus and the teething and the growth spurt, then we will do what we must. (Definition-IV fluid become TPN when nutritional elements are added to normal fluid, such as protein, vitamins, etc. ) Our TPN has a little protein because Kensley has to go off of tube feeds to stop stooling and throwing up, which is causing her to dehydrate. This TPN will last 3 days and then we will draw labs again on Monday. Pray that it works and we can go back to IV fluids soon. All of these trials have really put me to the test. You see this weekend is my in-laws 50th wedding anniversary and all the family is surprising them with a reception, all the family except Kensley and I. Because of this difficulty we could not go. I had to send Kaydee and Cooper down with my sister-in-law, and again we did not get to be a family. I cried and cried. It just got to me that once again we are separated. Then all the negative thoughts started coming, the doubt and the fear. Well, enough of that! Jesus told us to fear not and have peace, and I am calling on it. With great trials come great blessing and one day we will see those blessings. I am tired of being afraid and worrying. God is my father and He wants to give His children wonderful blessing. So I'm here and I may be here for a while longer, just staying close to home, cleaning poop, doing laundry, feeding Kensley (we haven't left the house in 3 days), but here I will be listening, waiting and praying to God. I hope you'll join me, because I know that God is working to being our family a blessing, just like he is working to bring you one also. Hugs from Heaven, Keep the faith, Tana